WHAT HURTS THE MOST

whos there to trust.
whos there to reach out too. for real.
whos there to be true.
whos a friend? for real.

i tried my best
shutting them out.
im turning cold.
turning into salty ices.

thanks to all for the surprise... there were more ppl then! would upload more fotos when i got hold of them! till then!!!

XOXO, JEANNIE!

hey all! so just an hour ago i turned 19! :)
theres alot of ppl ive got to thank! but here's first, i wanna thank my girls( simin, hakin, elaine, sms, jamie and june) and a few of the guys( louis, jason, shawn, daryl and jw) for giving my the surprise. i was really taken aback when i saw the cake, balloon and the present. lols. simin.... thanks for planning almost everything for me. i love u sweetheart! and thank you girls for the bag! thanks hakin and elaine for that unglam pic and the cute balloons:)
i dun have fotos with me now:) would post then out soon too!

mingxiang, adelina, dwayne, lexson, pk, romei, kendra, koklip, matthew, junyang, aldwyn, ambert, fiko, yuan feng, trey, leonard, cheekee, farhana and and anyone whom i have missed out, thanks for wishing me! im sorry if i left anyone out! but anyway thank you sooooo much! :D:D

everyone of u! ur wishes made my day!


xoxo! happy 19th to me! lol!

my birthday is tmr!
initially i was excited! but now im like...hmm.... i dunnoe!
all i want for my birthday is for all those i care about to wish me.
it isnt a big deal but still it makes me smile knowing that those that i care still remembered.
i dunnoe how to express the way im feeling.
BUT O WELL!
we'll see what tmr brings.

heres what happened during the weekends! dearest siti, opened her house for visitation on sat! and her house like super cool lar! she had nice cookies and food at home! and it felt so much like chinese new year with the pineapple tarts! o.o

here's the 2nd batch of us :D

then ytd was masters, i think we did our best. we are always so close yea. well let's all just train hard:D went down to hakin's house for visitation as well! there were alot of food i swear!

So in conclusion, i ate alot this weekends!

HAPPY BIRTHAY SHARON!
im so happy u were touched!
muahaha! and nice cupcakes!

optimising concentration

not in the past not in the future but in the present.
not dwelling of how we've been defeated,
not just sweet words about achieving more in time to come.
it's about starting now training hard now
to achieve the outcome we deserve.

the chip goes to the deserved.


haha so serious hor! i learn it in class today :D

hey all! well so it's been awhile since i last updated! im posting out random stuff.
recently we had the 10k race and 5 men crew, i think the team did fairly well, but nevertheless we all noe what we should do! train hard train hard train hard!
so i watched 'the house bunny' with simin and andy ytd
and i love it! haha super cute bimbo show! im gonna use the lines! lols!
and jamie and simin counted what 32? dun have so much lor! anyhow one!
okok enough of randomnesss....
hmmm i think im gonna skip sch tmr! im tired! i'll prob meet simin!

training at seletar tmr! :D:D

i had milo nuggets! :D

a day with milo?

what if i was serious this time?

chatting up with my girls today!
we all becoming more GL as time goes by...
NOT A GOOD SIGN CAN!
anyway good chats about ECS!
hahhaa so crazy over mine!
hush hush!

time to lose some weight!!!!!



so much for being soulmates.

hey all! it's been a long time!

the past weekend was spend at bedok reservoir for sava! it was awesome. i did lose my voice though aft the weekends. i see us improving together,the team did well! the guys the mix the girls i think we beat ourselves and given it our best shot.

my dear girls:

let's polish that medal!

1 girl= 2 man!

lai arh! let make sure we are in the business of winning:)

=(

breakdots..CRASHED!

IT is pretty much a complicated thing to figure
i sure aint ready for IT
IT just requires so much u noe.

arg f***!


anyway im off to m'sia with mum and other church mates tmr! i would miss training, my girls, my simin.


sigh cheese!:)

this i know:
my pang of ecstacy would not last!

how do u define true friends?

the truth unfolds.

the world so full of lies, you me and everyone else.

your joy.

ok i m here to blog!
opps shit
i forget what i want to say!
:D

IM PUZZLED

how come love could be the best thing on earth for a moment
and then it could be that one thing that breaks us down and turn us into what we're not?

im not necessary talking about me just talking bout it on a whole..

you know all this thoughts had me on the brim of tears?

im scared?

anyway dearest simin and i bought a lovely book.
sweet hearts no matter what im here for u
u noe i really love u
and all that matters is we still have one another.
i noe u'll be here for me.

junk

i tried so hard to be strong

but this day i falter.

sorry.

guys are off to penang today!
good luck u guys for the race
all out! get enough rest! and have fun!
meanwhile! haha the girls would have fun on our own
and keep u in our prayers!

o well i left the usual clique earlier ytd aft training,
wanted to get back early before mum nags and needed time alone:)
im ok ppl im ok.

it just aint true when they say
absence makes the heart fonder
it's making us strangers
straying away
i feel like dropping all these affairs of the heart.
its not easy to put it in words
we are all wearing masks.

goodbye dreams. hi world.

hi all:) it's been a long time..

o well i wore a skirt today! those long long kind! reason being because all of us agreed to wear a dress or skirt! but apparently they did not and only i did! so bad right! lols...anyway i feel weird. min say its weird too, she arent used to it! haha well its ok at least nic and the sms wear nice nice arh.

alright this was ytd when i webcammed darling!

jeannie, zoe, jaimie, june! :)
red ranger!!!!

haha everyones fake seriously.

i like!!!

hahaha..

i wannnnnt!

and so i took out my old diary tonight cos i was looking for a book to pen down stuff for the PP and then i started reading my old entries.
haha and some of them got me thinking others got me laughing about how immature i was in the past. alright maybe not immature but how naive i was about certain things.
yeah im getting very hardworking, getting down to serious work.:D
and well i keep feeling nauseous everytime i finish something feeling.
and im undergoing DEPRESSION? haha just kidding!

o well day was great today.
skipped sch with simin. and nic and his friend came soon after.
simin and I watched hostel and saw 2, both are super sadistic shows! but all those gory scenes are starting to make me bored! it's just blood splurting everywhere.

CHOCOLATE BANANA PIZZA! :D

cherish every little moments u have now

u wouldnt noe when it'll come to an end

LIFE'S UNPREDICTABLE!

bear this in mind u all

jeans has some stuff to say

she loves u all definitely

and if i never had a chance

i'll say it now

thanks for once being a part of me

ps. nothing's happening people, no frets. im just having er deeper thoughts today because i had too much time.

fucking no mood!
fucking emo!
fucking fucking fucking sian!
sigh
ok sorry for the uncontrolled spouts of vulgarites
i'll ctrl the next time round.

when the whole world's crashing down on u,
remember u still have us
my dear hot stuff cappy maniac queen.

WHY WHy Why why why why why.....

tears damn i HATE THEM!
holding them back till class end.

despair despair despair.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I’d hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would videotape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would know I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
and certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do's?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget,
tomorrow is not promised to anyone,young or old alike.

And today may be the last chance you get
to hold your loved one tight.
So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?

For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day
that you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
whisper in their ear,
tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"please forgive me,"
"thank you," or "it's okay."

And if tomorrow never comes,you'll have no regrets about today.

wah piang eh damn sad! dun bring me for breaks! hahaha
im gonna run everyday now! any running kakis during break?
i dun like my muscles lar! haha IDIOT!
they say i got no more chin, and im s****ficating.... BLOODY HELL! SHIT!


DESIREE IS SWEETS! :D

im at simins house now.
min and simin is asleep.
we just came back from bbq.
wasnt too bad
was quite fun
work was 1hour 40 bucks
arhhh i dun feel like blogging now
i suddenly feel so er feel so emo.

ytd was awesome:D
ive earned 50 bucks!
and now im bored in class!
O MAN BOREDOM KILLS!!!!!!!


ROAR!

ps.i cant wait for the next race! and i totally need to go on diet again!

im am sooooo freaking tired! like seriously i just fell asleep in class! hahaa but still a sense of satisfaction lngers! :)

the past 2 days was SDBF! burnt and tired but all was good! aggression and determination was nurtured when things happened, tears was shed but at the end of the whole event everyone went back with a contented heart, knowing that our own team brought something back for the whole sch! i catched up with alot of friends too! :) went back with 2 medals, a bronze and a gold, and the medals were pretty! :) er and my coaches wont see this, but i think they did and awesome job guiding us! RESPECT RESPECT!

team well done :). girls well done!
rmb not to be complacent, rmb that our best can always be better. and rmb to stand by one another through it all, rmb that everyone of us are impt. remember that dragon boat is a team sport and rmb that I LOVE U ALL!
HAHA and yea im so honoured to be ur coxwain. to be standing behind u all and seeing u girls pushing the boat forward! u girls are BEAUTIFUL!

TO MY BESTIE SIMIN I LOVE U! TO HAKIN MY CAPTAIN I LOVE U. TO JUNE MY TORTOISE I LOVE U. TO DADDY I LOVE U. TO S.M.S, I LOVE U 3!

to romei u arent forgotten i love u too! :)

EVERYBODY'S WEARING GREY! :D

hey all! it's been a long time since i last blog again right! ive been wanting to upload photos but i never had time to edit or choose the right ones! here's a few! :)
recent events are sure that i went for my cousins wedding and simin's very belated birthday:) .
im enjoying the company around me now and life's been good!
i've ought to have alot to write but i'll do it another time. so here goes some pics!

this is pamela!

my fav cousin since young!

and she's getting freaking hot!

my love, my bestie, my pillar of hope! happy belated b'dae!

i love my teammates!

same script different cast

Whitney:] Um? Hey Deb.
[Deborah Cox:] Mmm hmm?
[WH:] Thank you for being woman enough to come.
[DC:] Whitney, what's this about?

[SUNG]
[WH:] I know he's leaving me for you.
[DC:] Who said that? Who told you that it's true?
[WH:]What is he tellin' you?Could it be the same things that he told me?
[DC:] He told me that he loved me.
[WH:] I heard that.
[DC:] He told me I was (harmony) beautiful. How did you know? How did you know?
[WH:] Because I played that scene before.

[CHORUS:]
This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,And you're the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause it won't last.Same script, different cast.

[DC:]What you're saying could be true.But how can I take advice from you?
[WH:]I'm not hating,But I wish the one before meWould have warned me too babe.
[DC:] Don't say no more. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:] Uncover your ears, girl.
[DC:] I'm not listening. La La La La La La La La La
[WH:]But I know you hear me.Maybe my reasons are wrong,But I know that you believe me.

[CHORUS]

[DC] It's your fault you didn't love him enough.
[WH:]That's the problem.I loved him too much.And when you love him
He becomes unattracted to you.
[DC:] Oh no, he's changed and I'll prove you wrong.
[WH:] No you won't.
[DC:] So go away. Leave us the hell alone! He loves me.
[WH:] He'll hurt you.
[DC:] He'll stay with me.
[WH:] He'll leave you.
[WH and DC:] For sure! For sure!

[CHORUS]

[DC:]This is a retake of my life.
You were his star for many nights.
But now the roles have changed.
I'm the leading lady in his life.
Lights, camera, now you're on.
Just remember you've been warned.
Enjoy it now, 'cause this will last.I'm the future, you're his past.

[WH:]This is a retake of my life.
I was his star for many nights.
Now the roles have changed,And you're the leading lady in his life.
[WH and DC:]Lights, camera, now you're on.Just remember you've been warned.
[WH:] Enjoy it now.
[DC:] Enjoy just now.
[WH:] It won't last.
[DC:] I know it will last.
[WH and DC:] Same script, different cast.

theres no one i need to answer to.

PS. please dun make ur blog an information counter.

hey all! i noe it's been like so long since i updated my blog! a series of many many things happened!
ive been spending quality times with my db mates recently! and they've brought me a bundle of joy! recently went for almost full body waxing! and it feels as if a layer of skin peeled off me! haha i hate to lay almost naked in front of five ppl! how embarassing! owell! but there's always a first time! now my skin feels smooth winks winks!.

O AND I MET UP WITH SZE MING AND CYNTHIA! love them so much! i adore how we still have things to talk about despite the time we spent away from one another.

WATCHED kung fu panda with nic, sharon, shane and minghee today! and i had pretty much a lot a lot of fun!:) we had a hard time choosing what to watch and where to watch! lols! the show was pretty nice! and the panda looks like min and shane! heavy eyebags!

alrite alrite! honestly i dun really noe what to blog! just to add in some new words to this rusty blog! i'll update again when inspiration ticks in alrite! :)

romei come back soon! quality time with me k?


I LOVE ZMQ! kidding..my good friend

i put on my mask of joy again.

your silence is deafening:(

hahaa alright i need to explain everything!
I AM DEFINITELY NOT PSYCHOTIC! haha and i did not torture those juniors ok! they enjoyed themselves so much! dint u dint u! so much that sharon and min ghee took turns to sleep beside me! muahahahaha! SHANE wears cute boxers! :D

i met up with zoe first cos she came earliest! and wtf we spent 20dollars just on snack!0.0

girls thanks for such an enjoyable time and i love u all! :)
hahaha WHATEVER WHATEVER BOLD ITALIC! :D

PILLOW PILLOW LOVES BIG BIG BIG TIME!

i love u boy:)

This is post 273! And Jeannie has the honour of the famous blogger, Zoe yak jing fang to blog for her!

Currently, Shane, Min Ghee, Sharon and Zoe is over at Jeannie's house. With Yoko's companion. And suddenly, within the night, everyone has became "active". It doesn't matter who takes the first step anymore! Muahaha.

This jeannie wants me to say how hot and gorgeous she is. But obviously not. Okay, i'm so gonna get killed.

And i'm typing so many words wrongly, cause my eyelids are closing. There was training today, and jeannie being the coxswain of the junior girls' boat, she was falling asleep. Can you imagine?!! Us paddling so hard, yet. SHE'S THERE SLEEPING! Sleeping with her total unglam. hideous look. Dripping saliva and stuff like that.

Okay, there's training tomorow. Yet Jeannie is still not slepeing early, we're all very tired but she doesn't wanna let us sleep. Now my boyfriend is behind me, looking at what i type. "He" is very sexy, lying on the bed with the bolster waiting for me! Hahaha! People guess who's my boyfriend.

Okay, gimme 10 more secs and i think jeannie is gonna be back. And Jeannie is a very stubborn girl, she once had a bad blister on her ankle, but she still wanna run. All thanks to the awfully nice girl, zoe yak so eventually she didn't run. the awfully nice girl persuaded her not to run, finally.

and jeannie is taking a very long time to brush her teeth, my eyes are closing. save us people. min ghee is sexually harassed by jeannie! jeannie is such a psycho. please keep a distance from jeannie! cause she pinches people's butt, like adeline's. she pulls min ghee's shorts cause she wanna see her boxers. see how psychotic jeannie is? so yes, people out there. please keep a distance from her.

we ought to be sleeping soon, cause training is super early for jeannie the psycho.

jeannie the psycho is gonna be back soon, stay tune people! for more updates of psychotic jeannie!

heh now psychotic jeannie is locked outside the room and we're happily sitting here chit chatting and almost falling asleep.
nights all!

psychotic jeannie is back!

HAPPY (belated)B'DAE ZOE AND ELAINE!:)

played basketball with some of the junior girls ytd and von and sipei came! memories of how we used to be in a team came back. those few teammates will forever be missed! arh just the thought of how close we use to be almost brought tears to my eyes!

simin and me became emo during our runs today, and we shared secrets! simin hush hush! yes i miss those times with them when the shed was noisy, when there was so much BONDS. yes simin we dun wanna have them and lose them again. :( how... ive got lots more to tell u.

love was so sweet. went back home with him! muacks! i love u CHEN!

yesterday was our i 1th year together!:)
i bought him a pair of new havianas and his shaker. going to get him his watch for his b'dae. we went to town ytd to choose his havianas and soon after went back to his granny house and went fishing! had so much fun with him and his family and i was soo happy! im glad love we've gone through so much really, and im happy to have u with me all this time! u mean so much to me and im glad weve gone through thick and thin. i love u much more each day :)
went to vivo today and love got his pay. he bought me the pair of shoes ive always wanted!:) thks love i really like it.

attempting to write a really long post but i really cant.

the bottom line is I LOVE U! and u noe that love :)

i wanna lose weight! at least a lil bit more. do more crunches, run more do more squats i wanna have abs! not rock hard 6 pecs but u noe just the outline! :)

no la i wouldnt end up like her! it's going to be hard to be like her ok!

happy labour day ppl..haha so cliche!
well there's no sch today, and im at home. didnt meet up with love cos we should spend more time at home. poor love got his specs scratched by the optician so he got to have them done soon. i missed him though! im now on this desperate attempt to save as much money as possible! :)

the new batch of girls reminded me alot of our batch. shane, sharon and min ghee was like yvonne sipei and van, dont u agree simin! sigh i miss them! but well i like having so much girls in the team again! it's doesnt feel weird. love ya girls, hold on to each other as tight as possible. we dun noe who stays at the end of the day, but the time spent together would be the best. EVEN the tiring trainings spent together would become valuable at the end of the day.

LOVE U CHEN!

dear diary, a series of good stuff happen the past few days!
but i'll start with today, went to love's house aft training, chilled out at his place and had a great time, and then went out with his family for jap food! poor love had to forked out 80 dollars as he promised to his family. but well i had a great time and food was good. ps love i understand.
o and training today had some funny stuff, one of the junior girls load up the boat and faced me! meaning wrong direction lols! and she was so confident! hahah super funny and even steve laughed!

yes yes so yup we have juniors now. i've been staying back everyday in sch to help out:) but the best was i could wait for love and go back home with him too:) having so many girls in the team again felt great! and i hope history wouldnt repeat itself!

yoko had his first grooming session and he looks like a SCHAUNZER NOW! lols im still no use to it he looks more matured now! last time he looks more like a lil boy! but well i still love yoko anyhow!

in short i love CHEN AND YOKO!

ure the one because u complete my life
(and i noe this is corny but it's true)

i love u Chen.

yes masters today! girls didn make it for heats but i think we did well to come out as first for the minors. after all we were handicapped boat. but what mattered most was that we all went down finally with a common goal and this time with much encouragement for on another! hehe i coax for the boat...first time le scared sia! lols screech until throat pain can! then aft that go simin house to bathe! her dogs are cute, but as smelly as her! :P (kidding) lols

but ididn got to meet love though! :( miss him much! but tmr can see him le! hehehe

030408 was our eleventh month!!

so fast! and it doesnt even seem like it's close to a year! :) spent the day aft training at love's house, chilled out watched family guy and just spending time together! im glad weve gone through this much and well i noe he noes that i love him :D

went to his house again too and we watched homerun 2. love claims that the show is very disturbing! LOL ok lar i think the whole storyline and the actors aso quite lame!

to sum it up three simple words to choutou:P - i love u

tmr's masters im going to do coax!(i hope)

yep yep it's been a long time since i last updated again! the past few days was however generally great! i spent lotsa time with love and went to his house to chill. we went to the cinemas ytd to watch horton! and haha the songs was cute! nothing beats having love around! and yoko has been misbehaving doing his lil business at the wrong places again. i cant wait for love to come and discipline him!


the past few days i was recalling back to the days when we had a bigger girls team, when zul was still around and many other teammates were still here. and then i looked back at the pictures and see all those familiar faces who now seemed so hard to reach.





Would it still be the same with them or would there be an awkard silence. i rmb so many stuff happening with the girls, and penang, o man that was awesome, but then again it seemed like that was the last time when everyone were really together. the last time i was to report the girls team attendance i needed to count and confirm but now HAHA tell me bout it. a single digit. although inevitably the girls tries to tolerate with one another's lil flaws..but those were the times. i missed van-the girl who never failed to sing, von-my scented tofu!, sipei-sleeping beauty, noelle sexy grey thing, nurul-the hot girl and of course jerean! i knew u even before coming to db. you noe u are partly one of the reasons why i joined db because i didn want to go there alone and i was so glad u were around! i rmb how we often celebrate one another's b'dae, ha i couldnt forget mine when they gave me cheese tofu, spread that buttery choc cream over my face :S... and then i thought would i still have so much fun this year. and then i think again would going over to penang still be fun with no much bitches around! :D thank you simin, you've stayed on.

AND LOVE IM HAPPY URE COMING BACK!

many things happen! i just wasnt in the mood to blog the past few days.
im spending more time with love now cos he had taken more time off to do his own training! but that also mean we have more time together! gosh i enjoy time with him! we recently catched water horse and i think its a real good show! :) love's gotten a new psp, at first i was afraid about him psing me...but now i can play his psp toooo!!!!!! haha so fun! and he's so lucky he's gotten so much new gadgets! and they are really cool! imagine a PDA phone....lols...nvm he's stuff are mine!:P
well yoko's getting cuter nowadays with a tad bit of attitude problem! he doesnt want to sit on my lap when i usethe laptop cos he noes i'll not play with him! he's getting smarter. but alvin say he's grown much more? did he, i dont think so perhaps i've seen him all day.
ive injured my arm 2 days ago! while washing clothes and the floor was slippery and i slipped and fell on my arm! and it hurts so bad esp ytd aft training. i went to the sinseh this morning and he almost killed me! he rubbed at the right spot with so much strength! and he told me i very easy to break bones. -.-

alright that's about all! enough updates?! :)

love like louis chen!

its our 10TH MONTH TODAY! man im soooo sooooo happy we've gotten this far!!!
dear dear i'll never forget all these great time we have together since we started. i went to love's house this morning and we intended to make choc fondue. but like all worried mums, we were certain that his mum would nag when she come home and thinks the house is a mess. so we decided not too and watch "meet the spartans" on the com which was so LAME!
LOLS and after that we went to vivo to watch "oscar:juno" which was a not bad movie and im certain not many have heard of it yet... :)

spending time like this with love really makes me happy!:D

I LOVE U DEAR DEAR

It's been a long time since ive last blog.... nothing much happened over the past few days..it was training, meeting love during his off days and play with yoko... i haven meet love today cos he got to work and i miss him so much! roar.. im starting to dread trainings cos most of the time they dun turn up :(

it's gonna be me and love's 10th month soon..i hope we could spend the day together actually...i really hope!! MUACKS DEAREST... I LOVE U....






:( i dunnoe how else to express the way i feel

hw could i even afford to smile.

well lets just say the past 2 days was considered boring cos it was just training, lunch with db mates and home. love had to work this 2 days...man i miss him terribly.... thank god he has a off day tmr! YAY I CANT WAIT! :D


well theres really nothing much...i'll blog again soon... :) with photos i hope if im not lazy!

hmmm yes i guess everyone would blog about hw they spend their cny now...let me just give a short summary.... first day was with my own family in the day...and den in the evening i joined love at his granny's hse...and again ihad fun.. taking pics that i'll update soon.... lols... the sond day was the best though, i joined love and his entired family....we had agreat dinner eating "golden pillow" and watched a late night movie, chang jiang 7 hao together...i thought the show was really nice..that alien puppy reminded me of yoko! 3rd day of new year, was with church mates and they came to my house...and so today... i went to church visited romei's house awhile and spend time and love's family to celebrate his grandpa's b'dae! HAPPY B'DAY GONG GONG! the food was simply delicious! i really had fun today! thanks love, you've made my day!

lately dreams seemed so real..i wish they'll never happen.

now i haven been blogging for a long while! alot of things happen but i just was lazy!

but well let's just talk abou today before i talk about other things!

it was HAPPY 9TH MONTH FOR LOVE AND ME TODAY! haha....yeap he took leave today, and we went to marina square to have seoul garden, and he brought me to crocs to try some of them on..and it's really pretty nice. hahaha he was like an experienced crocs salesman already, there was no need to get the staff dere to help! and yes it was so nice to see him after spending 1 and 1/2 a day without him! he came to my house and we played with yoko together! haha and we took super cute shots of yoko!

and yes over the past few days that i didn blog...ive gotten yoko! he's a joy man! but he gets really naughty and poops around...im gonna have to train him during the holidays! i miss love during trainings, but i'm ok.. i need time to get use to it though... but still i love u dear!
:)


thanks for this great day
thanks for taking time off for me
im glad we've gone through this much
and im sure theres so much more.
thanks for accepting me,
putting up with my lil tantrums
and loving me.
i love u dear!

training was weird today without love, im taking some time to think about whether to quit or not. i miss having him around. but well just give me a few more days to process my thoughts.
on the brighter side, love's cousin is gonna give me a dog! hehehe awesome right! i cant wait to have a dog man!

ps dear:

i love u no matter what! give me sometime to decide ok love? :)
just know u're the only one that can make me think so hard.
ure important to me. and frets not cause i MISS U!

i held back at questions.

when i start to have cravings for lays sour cream and onion, pizza hut's beef balognaise, ice cream and chocs. when i start to feel bloated! when i start to have very obvious mood swings and when i tear at simple random things. i know it's the premenstrual stage, aso known as pms. o yes... i think it's coming soon! =S

ive been thinking bout some things....mum and the girls team...
girls.stay? please?

SIGH

alright i better get some sleep...

dear I LOVE U!

walk my steps

it's our 8th month today! :D we went to watch I AM LEGEND wanted to watch avp2 at first but then i did not have any identication with me to show that i am above 16 but isnt it obvious....-.- hmph...o well but the show was still alright! i enjoyed my time today with love... spending time together with no distractions was good enough!

thanks love for all this time and all these joy you've brought me!!! thanks for going through bad and good times with me! i'll never forget how we got to meet, how we started and soooo much more!

I LOVE U!

i have not been in a mood to blog though, i'll be back soon!

this jeans is so much happier today! love's back in town...and he came to find me this morning at my house! hahah awesome, i've missed him so much! and we've spent the entire day together already! we watched heroes spent time together went to his grandparent's house nearby went back my home for supper! hehe but my poor dear dear is now super tired and sleeping at his grandparents house..he's waiting for his parents to come and pick him and his sister up... his grandpa just isnt feeling well! sigh sayang!

yeah! tomorrow can spend time with love again! now u can all tell that i'm elated, contented and happy!


ps. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT! BIG BIG BIG TIME!

I MISS YOU SO BAD~~~~

i went to church today and catch up with romei and leon! romei i'm enticed by your stories all the time and leon, dun grow taller anymore. thanks all for the xmas gift! but of course love's xmas gift meant the most to me! ive been going online at night, excited and anticipating love to come online to have a video call this few nights! dear i love u! thanks for making the effort to come online just to chat with me alrite! come back quick i want hugs!

BOY I MISS U!

gah saturdays feel so weird with my love... missed him like soooo soooo soooo soooo much today! dear i hoped u had fun! but i'm really happy u gave me a call today! muacks and we managed a video call!

today and yesterday was awesome! yesterday i went to love's house! i brought his xmas present for him too! hehehe i bought him a pair of havianas and i made him a card! his card not easy to make hor! hehe but i'm glad he liked it! of course he was really naughty and read the card before xmas even when i tell him not to! :P after that i spent the day at his house, we watched 'HEROES' and his mum bought lunch for us! it just felt so nice spending time with LOVE and his family.

today i met love at sumerset! we went to change his havianas and he bought me one too for xmas! i love it, i love it! thanks dear, but no worries i love u more! :) we watched warlords which was nice and we hanged out together...heheh my xmas present from love is so nice, a movie treat and havianas! GUSHES! SO SWEET! hehe aft the movie and hanging around love sent me back home! we hanged out awhile and went down to have a light dinner! o man i had a great great time today! treasured the time so much today, cos it was the last day before love went to m'sia! I'M GLAD HE ENJOYED HIMSELF TOO!!!

I WANNA GO TOO! i'm so unwilling...but well it's already fixed. i think i'll go to the lib to borrow books to read to let time past....some really really INTERESTING BOOKS! sigh i'm going to miss love he's leaving tmr..gosh i'm being a lil emo here! o wells at least i'm consoled that he's going to leave me messages when he's there! i'm going to miss having him to cuddle and hang around with!

DEAR please take care of urself while having fun, leave me messages AND I LOVE U! :) MUACKS LA SHE BU DE HOR!

i went for wet training today! it's pretty much boring! almost all of the girls wasnt here... but well at least the seniors were there to accompany me..love sent me home today! so awesome! i love it when there's someone accompanying me home! i mean girls dont u like it when ur guy sent u home! we slacked at my house and watch 'who slept with her'...it's not some r21 show... it's really funny and me and love were laughing our ass off! mum cooked and soon after he had to go...i miss my dear dear though he's only been away from me for 2 hours.

sigh ive got bad news!!!! the pus on my eyes return again! THE PUS KEEPS FLOWING! i dont noe why it come back! but luckily there isnt training for a few weeks so i can put my eyes to some rest! i hope i get a lil better tmr! i'll prob wont wear my contacts for the next few weeks...
so peeps, prepare for GEEKY JEANS! :S


i dread for next sat to come, love's going to m'sia for FIVE DAYS...i bet i would be damn bored on those five days and prob thinking of him all the time. and worst still we cant msg one another cause of the bills.i keep feeling upset that i cant go, i know love had wanted me to go badly too, but o well.. sigh. it's ok love, please go ahead and have fun, just miss me from time to time can? i'm going to spend all my days the next week with him accept for prob just one day to buy his present! hehehe...dear..I'LL MISS U AND I LOVE U!

have i mentioned that love's going to malaysia! well he's going soon! hais i dread that day to come! it'll be almost a week without love by then, i was offered the opportunity to go with them cos they were taking a coach and his dad invited me, but mum wouldnt grant me permission.. :(
well i'll miss him so much.... i wanna go do my christmas shopping soon! i'm getting love something before he go to malaysia! and he can only open the present on christmas! tsk christmas without him would be boring. but well he's spending his christmas with his family, so maybe i can spend my christmas with my family and friends too.

dear dear i love u! you're in for some surprise when u get back..

hey all i just came back from penang!! well the guys and the mixed team did a terribly good job! but well those who went aso know a few things that made everyone angry and upset... but i had fun with the girls, with MY LOVE! hehehe he bought an absolutely cute berms! COLOURFUL!! LOL well...i'll post up photos soon! for now! back to class!!!

love u much. champion in my heart.

happy 7th month dear dear!!!

it's so fast! 7 months already! i've enjoyed every single moment with u!! i loved the times we spent together.. it's not as if we never had disagreements,every couple do. but it's just how the couple handles them, whether it strengthens their relationship anot. And i'm proud to say that it is! feels like i'm loving u more and more each day.thanks love, for always being dere with wide open arms. there's just so many things i adore about u! (just stop being naughty so often :P)

aiya...i have so much more stuff i wanna say,
but let's not gross the readers up...MUSHY STUFF UNDISCLOSED!

I LOVE U!!

today was my cousin's big day! i tell u it was super tiring! i woke up at 6am so that i could reach her house by 7am to doll up and all! my cousin was extremely pretty!:D and they spent so much on the wedding -.- about like 60k! gosh i would not be an expensive bride, my GROOM! hehe...but well the money did her good she look awesome! and i teared when she did her speech to my cousin and my aunt..it's hard to explain. but well i always admire those who got married... how they are so prepared to take this big step in life! congrats cousin! so i had to skipped training today! but i'll be going tmr! i miss my dear dear too! SO TERRIBLY MUCH!...

THERE'S MANY THINGS I WANNA SAY BUT MAYBE SOMETIME SOON! I'M TIRED! FOTOS ON THE WEDDING MIGHT BE UP IF I MANAGE TO GET THEM...

with the spoon on the left
the fork on the right
she twirls the worms up the fork
when they are fastened
she carefully placed them on the spoon.
scooping whatever hanging up on it
she slowly bring it to her mouth
and chew the worms o sooo slowly...
she chew and she chew and she chew
looking left looking right...left right left right
refusing to look at those around her.
den she sink her fork into the worms again and it continues....
those worms are like vomit to most, but it was a feast to her!

TRIBUTE TO SHILESSE POW!

I PROMISE U LOVE

i know i havent been blogging lately, but o well let me just blog about the past 3 days.

on fri: there was suppose to be a bbq with all db mates, love and me went to his house first to rest. i was starting to feel a lil unwell so we both took a nap. then i woke up feeling terrible and love told me i was really hot(fever i mean). his family wasnt around and i was really restless, so love let me stay at his house late. he took care of me! he brought me water whenever i needed them, and attempted to cheer me up whenever iwas awake, he was just so sweet!!! i must say i was really unwell that night i was giddy, sleepy, cold. and when we were both below his house flagging for a cab i vomited and i know i made love worried.

on sat: me and love went to watch enchanted at vivo city, i was starting to have gastric. and i know i wasnt as active as usual and love keep asking if i was ok! i'm sorry love if i was still a lil restless that day, but u made my day just accompanying me!:)

and well today i went out with love and family aft training, he couldnt go cause he was having a fever. which was most likely from me..but well i have a great day with them..

i feel loved, i know he loves me! sometimes simple things that he do makes me go AWWW, and simply an 'i love u' from him makes my day, i didnt even feel awful when i vomited in front of him, i knew he wouldnt mind!....true love kiss? i got loads from him alr!

i'm startin to think about the list of people to give christmas presents too! here's a couple of them, my choutou, romei, leon and mum!. so i'm going to SAVE MY MONEY FROM NOW ON! and people please constantly remind me to save my money! well christmas has always been one day i look forward to each year. i like how everyone exchange gift with one another, send greetings, get together without having intentions of collecting 'hongbaos'..and spend time with the ones we loved! i've got plans for my choutou!...actually i've been wanting to spend my christmas with him, it would had been our first christmas together...but well he had to go for a family trip with his entire family.... i'm not angry or anything though i mean it doesnt matter as long as he enjoys himself, it sounds rather fun i was actually invited but the cars had limited seats...but i'm not freaking out... i have surprises...which i arent gonna tell now cause he reads! heheheh!

lately it seems like i have alot of wedding to attend! there's tmr... one of the girls i use to play with when i was little... and den my cousin.....well it seems like i had attended lots of weddings this year.... it gets irritating though.. i have to go st8 dere aft sch.... just to doll myself up... i dun deny liking to dress up but it gets tired after one whole day of sch...


to end off...i love my choutou!(there's only one louis chen, one choutou)

HAIS i misplaced my wallet!!!!!
now where could i have placed it!!!

o man i dun even noe maybe someone else took it....i had my wallet when i board the bus i had it when i get down ( i think) i could have place it on the table in the canteen but i dun recall anything man!!! but if i were to leave it in sch i think someone had already taken it! :( should i call the bus company! o man jeans is upset!

arh so we had already 2 continuous days of training! and my body is aching!!! it's irritating how we have to stop training in sch... i mean i know we wear slippers to school but why are they so concern about slippers tsk!!! well i've got to ask hakin where she wanna train...i hope we could go somewhere near where love is training too... at least we could go back home together...

u know...more training means lesser time alone with love... buti'm still glad that we could spend some time chilling out together aft training!

DEAR DEAR I LOVE U...MUACKS!

o the holidays are over...back to waking up early and meeting love everyday!!! hahaha there's always something good behind everything bad! muhaha... o well, i catched up with romei during the holidays and we went shopping. i finally bought a smaller siazed denim shorts that fits and both of us bought new girl boxers. guess we'll wear it together the next time we have a sleepover!:D i met up with love on sat to watch the BEE MOVIE and we took some photos too! here's a couple of them!

i love lou!

eek we have trainings everyday except wed now..

let's just say i enjoyed myself the past 2 days.... yesterday i went to love's house to chill out..and his aunt came...she brought love's mum, sis and bro and us to go for japanese food! the food was awesome.... greeat and we were all so full that we thought we were going to explode. i'm ecstatic cos i had spent the whole entire day with my lulu!:D
today well i met up with him to collect his passport at lavender...we spent a lot of time waiting for his passport but that's a plus for me cos i got to spend time with him and he accompanied me at home today :) now if only everyday is like that and i get to spend time with him...

hais but here's the bad news i wont get to see him tmr..... i noe i'm going to miss him badly.. crazily...lols.... it sounds crazy how i'm so attached to him and long to meet him every day....but well i cant help it....seems odd to spend a day without him...

i've been thinking about that nightmare lately..some of my nightmares became true...
but this must be my worse nightmare ever....i'm scared...

today was the last day of river regatta!!!! it's pretty much full of excitement for the past 2 days, although i didnt get to do much it's nice seeing the anxiety in everyone's face haha and i mainly took photos for the team while love was away...

we took many photos the past 2 days like over 300!!! i'm going to upload a few as soon as i get them from love...but the sad thing is he lost his cable which i think was mainly my fault cos i was holding to the camera... i intend to get him a new one....

CANT WAIT TO CHILL OUT WITH LOVE TMR! IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME!

hahhaa....a random thought came to my mind...
dear dear do u rmb when i used to call u 'my lulu' when we started going out together..... haha u still is hor...just that we are calling each other 'dear' now yeah?:)

hahah i love u my lulu!

every month since we've been together, i've always dedicate a post just for u at this day of the month! it' pretty obvious it's our monthly anniversary today! it's the 6th month, HALF A YEAR!

6 months is like so fast ...
it doesnt even feel like we've gone through half a year together
this 6 months we had our lil quarrels occasionally
but mostly unforgettable, sweet times...
love ive no fancy words to describe the way i feel
but here's three simple words just for u
I LOVE Umadly deeely truely wholeheartedly!

need i say more.... :)

i'm sick! i'm always sick like near the race! tsk this is so damn frustrating!!!! gosh i'm having like blocked nose nad a terrible sore throat...hahah i'll probably whisper while drumming! hahah but then on a happier note...it's our last race in singapore this year....and the best is that....

ITS OUR 6TH MONTH! i'm elated...we've gone through half a year together and we have many half a year to go!!!

to love:
i'm happy we spent the entire day together today! even though it was just slacking watching countless movies together and then we both end up having an irritating nose...it's just nice spending time with u... :) today is only one of the happiest moments i have with u!....dear...
you've spiced up my life!

6th month at singapore river...

yes! so yesterday was my birthday!!! i celebrated it with love, mum, dad and the db girls! let's start with how the db girls celebrated for me! i went with sipei , jerean and yvonne for an shl talk. then we went to food haven. van popped out with the birthday box so i thought it was cake inside naturally... then she opened and it happened to be cheese tofu...-.-
aft tat noelle came with the cake! chocolate cake!!! :D after that they smeared the cake at me and then we took random fotos...

see how yvonne cant lay of me!

notive yvonne's hands again and how happy she is!

so when sch ended i went to love's house!!! we did rj at his house collected his camera and waited for him to bath. we went to find mum and dad at paragon on the way there love bought me flowers and we all went to a spaghetti restaurant!!!! we ate lotsa food and love took lots of fotos...but i dun have them now!!! but anyway thanks love for the card and flowers! and thank you for spending time with me! i enjoyed myself very much! mum bought me my crumpler!!!

ranranranrandom post

my birthday is up in 2 days!!! hhaha and i keep pestering love to give me flowers for my birthday...and this is what he send to me!

-.-

hahah yes my dear love! this is cute lolx but real flowers would be nice!!!heheh :p muacks! i love u! i hope mummy get me a crumpler! lolx and i have a whole list of wish list u wouldn want to hear!

i need to save lots and lots and lots of money though! i'm intending to go on a shopping spree with love as long as he finish returning his money to his bro! we'll start saving!!! i cant wait for that shopping day!!

just some photos

aloysius, love's lil cousin
awesome scenery shot eh!


this are the photos that love took when we went to fetch his cousin from the airport....it was super fun! i dun feel like typing much todae...so i'm just showing fotos alrite..

the airport

Yesterday was super fun! i went out with with love's family. I think his family are really fun people and all of them are friendly! :) we went to the airport and of course everybody was waiting in anticipation for his cousin to come expecially debbie his cousin's wife! And when he came out, debbie and his cousin hugged and both his cousin's mummy and wife was crying!!!

Well i was gettin a lil tad bit emotional(dun blame me, it was pms) anyway it was sooo sweet, i almost teared but i'm glad i didn or it'll be super embarassing!!! hhaha but i can just imagine if love were to go overseas next time, i'll probably be like debbie!!! o man i cant even imagine so many months without my love! and if i have a son next time i'll prob cry too!!!

Well ok so aft everything in the airport we went down to ECP where love took many many pictures and we all did some catching up...it's just nice u know, like when all of them gather to talk about anything ...i envy such gatherings! Probably because my family rarely has such outings except during chinese new year where we meet up at my granny's place. My love also took many nice scenery shots and yes me with some of his relatives... :D I would had love to stay much longer but it was late! love had a race for the next day, and we were all pretty tired.

the day ended off well!!! and love thanks for bringing me there!! i had so much fun! and best of all i love it when we spent so much time together!!!! Need i say anymore, u know i love u. :)

i'm at love's house!!! i came aft training!!! but o well hes sleeping now! we would have a long dae todae man!!! icant wait for the fun! and a whole day of joy with him!!!! now...be jealous people!!!

tata!

hey peeps!!! well i'm blogging at the weirdest time! i had ended training and now here i am blogging before i go for my beauty sleep......
i'll be busy tmr!!! training first den to fidhaus house, he invited the whole team to his house! i pity his mum though while we have a hell of a time his mum had to cook so much food for us gluttons....o well so anyway aft tat love's dad would come to pick us up and we would have to go to see his cousin at the airport...who came back! i'm pretty excited to see love's family again he's father side! they are such fun loving ppl and kids are awesomely cute! and i'm staying out late tmr till like 2am...well it's worser for love! he has a race the next dae....

have i mentioned my love got his new camera?

well his camera is super cool the shots are sharp!!!

and i'm thinking of getting one myself too!

but it's really ex and i dun think i can save that much amount of money!

i wont stop spending and i dun have tat much endurance like my love!

maybe i'll get one when i start working next time:)

love brought his cam ytd and todae...but i'll show some of the shots we took todae!

notice there isnt any of love fotos!!!

hais thats cos he didnt send me! lolx

i took some really nice shots of him ok!

i'll ask him to send me tmr...if he doesnt allow me to post at least i can look at it:D

i'll post fotos of todae tmr!

at the mean time!!!

cya peeps!

i love LOUIS CHEN~

i'll just start things from ytd..

i indeed went to the stadium...well i did not regret i did quite alot of catching up with romei and she told me about her stories and lil scandals in sabah! i was pretty much missing my love though i called him when i reach my place. and he came dwn just to spent some time at the soya bean shop!!! and todae well i went for training love didnt go though! tsk tsk he's a naughty boy! any way he's family came to fetch me at seletar (so sweet! thanks aunty and uncle) to go collect my love's camera! i think his dad is soo cool! he bought love his camera and even bought him a better bag to store all his camera and kit.... and his daddy treat me to lunch too! i spent some time at his house! and den it was time to go! i'm super happy for my love! he finally got his well deserved camera! and he had saved so long for it! but now i'm third hor laogong!:p

there's other stuff i wanna rant...but i'll do it next time!!! i have forever! for now!
dear dear i love u!

i hate myself tonight

there's no training todae! but i actualli miss training! i'm like doing nothing the whole sat! i'm going down to khatib stadium yet again this time to follow my mum and her cell group members to do some sports... but i will most prob go run at the tracks. on one hand i am extremely excited to see my church friends but then again i wanna stay at home and wait for love to reach his granny's place and run down to find him...i hope they dun take too long to play! i'm missing my love terribly! and i'm having a slight headache!

i cant wait to meet my love and just cuddle beside him! i'm feeling kinda restless!

i miss my love! i miss romei i need to go shopping i need to replenish my sleep

dear dear i love u so much!!!! today was awesome! i'm happy! thanks for spending most of the day with me ! :D

it's our 5th month!...it's just another day i'm sure! but i'm happy we've gone through so much together... we've gone through our fair shar of ups and downs and i'm glad we've pulled through those downs together and love u've made me really happy!

you made me feel precious with those kisses
you delight me with little surprises..
you make me feel safe whenever u place ur arms around me!
you make me feel special like i'm part of ur future plans
you make me happy whenever i'm upset
you're in my thoughts at least half of my waking hours
i love the way u laugh at ur own jokes...
and love there's so much more about u that i adore!!
I KNOW U KNOW I LOVE U!!!
muacks!