a crush...

someone once asked me, "so have you found him?"
i replied, "yes, i have"
"then what did you do about it?"
"nothing, so i lost him"
"do you regret it?"
"yes, i do"
"Do you want him back then?"
"yes i do, but i see no point in having someone who doesnt want you as much as you want him"
"so youre just going to leave things the way they are?"
"im just wondering when my devotion for him will end"
"have you asked him how he feels yet?"
"ive too many questions and too little answers. maybe sometimes its better to leave things the way they are. that way, even if the answers arent those that im searching for, i'll never know"
"So what are you going to do about him?"
"forget him, he deserves better"

its like a case between you and a piece of candy. you see this candy that you really like and youre really attracted to it. you reach over to grab it, and just as you are about to touch it, you remember that youve had a similar kind of candy before and it brought you hell loads of tummyaches. so reluctantly, you turn away, throw a longing glance at the candy and walk away. but then, a thought hits you right smack in your face. the sweetness the candy will bring you will be far greater than the tummyaches it will cause. so you hurridly turn back and rush to the candy, only to discover that it has been taken by someone else. and then you realise that there was only one of its kind of candy and you lost it cos of your stupidity. and now, however appealing the rest of the candy on the rack may be, none of them catches your attention and youre left pining for the candy you could have had; but dont.


maybe its better this way. cos you'll never get the candy OR diabetes. (((((:

i need you more than you think i do.