i've recently been quite hurt....prob pissed....but den i'm tryin to get over it alreadi....
i guess...everything tat happens, the diff issues hav made me bcum more gloomy and hot tempered dis daes.... T.T
i probably wont b updating tat much lately...hav exams....sooo yup...
o ya....and i'm still not quite used to my new hairstyle..lolx...
god bless one and all...
take care for the exams....

blehx....depression

i have been quite gloomy dis daes....haven been feeling quite happy and not realli my usual high self...probably it's juz exams round the corner tat has got me quite stress...and perhaps it's aso pms...
der's juz soo many tings gg on....and i noe lately i have been quite hot tempered...sooo to those of my frens hu i have flared at...i'm realli sorry....hope u guys can understand...and all these doesn't help when my mum is stressing me soo much as well...yupx..and again the whole stack of topic and chapters...dat has got to b in my head ....have been realli stressing too....
and yup sum other problems as well.
T.T
sobx..
{lord lord...pls b my guide}
i'm alone at home now...xian...

O MY SON...MY HAIR

arrr...
i cut my hair 2dae...and i'm not exagerating...my fringe is realli juz 1 cm....o well den it get's longer..i'm totally freaking out...i look weird...makes my head look bigger...arh....den...my ponytail is lyk sooo straight...as if no layer lyk tat...but well it's lyk steps...soo lyk jap style lyk tat u noe....yupyup..
but i cant stacnd it....
omg...how to face sch lolx..
i'm gonna clip everything up...so when it grows longer den i'll let it down....ar...and i juz talk to deb and she saeshe's gonna luff at me...she's soo evil..
lolx...but esther and diying sae it looks fine...dey got abit tired of me touching my hair all the time lolx..
den after tat we went to eat pastamaina..
omg i'm super broke dis daes..

haiz....ar....i miss my hair..
arrrrr...arrrrarrrr........

move along

hey hey....todae....actualli suppose to go wiv diying to paya lebar....but den she got gepg proj....soo went wiv jia to eat ljs instead...yupyup....not much happen todae...jia was in pain todae..poor her...hope she's alrite..."

I'm smelling you so your scent will always be the first thing my nostrils remember.
I taste your tears so I can remember what it was like to feel your pain.
I'm kissing you so that I can be able to remember the feeling of your lips against mine.
Trying to savour the feeling I get when you're within reaching distance from me. .
I could no longer contain myself and fell to the floor, but he caught me, like I knew he would.
I bawled my eyes out until they ached with the pain, but nothing compared to the feeling inside my heart.
I fell in love with him,
who ever said it would work out perfectly?
But then again, I wouldn't turn back the hands of time to erase this feeling.
Because not even that could change such a feeling.

He left without another word as he watched her disappear in the distance as she looked longingly back at him; wishing things were different- wishing that things didn't have to be this way.

He loved her and she loved him.
No one ever doubted that.
But sometimes, that just isn't enough.


Speak to me,
when all you got to keep is strong
Move along,
move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along,
move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

*sniff*

hurhur....todae's easter!!!!....
i'm looking forward to death...coz it's no longer scary coz u'll b falling into the arms of the lord....and i'll b spending eternity wiv him!!!....jesus is the holy word...:D...
o well...anw my church didn realli had a major event for easter dis year...but it's still good....we have water baptism at east coast todae....it's betta....witnessing ppl baptism....gg into a deeper step of faith wiv god!!!..
yupyup..
goodie..
yup we went straight aft church...romei wasnt at the service coz she was bz being chicken little!!!!...at sundae sch!!!whahahahha
ok anw sooo after all the baptism tingey...we went for lunch first...had wanton mee!!! yumyum..
yea....and den terrence and dexter keep watching over the drinks dun let me drink!!!....evil!!!!...
haz....yup...den went back to lay our mats...
went roller bladding lolx.....i got the hang of it...juz hav to go more often...yupyup..
and den later go cycle kkz...soo fun cycle to bedok jetty...and den leon darling and i went to cycle to sum car racing place...but it's sooo cooll....and we were gg soo fast....hahahahz...had fun wiv lovely babies....!!>...edna, sarah, ethan!!!....dey are juz soo cute....and javia came....!!!.....aww i din c him.....

yupyup...den went for dinner....
went back hm and mum was shocked!!!!!!!!....i looked lyk a mango!!!....red!!!>..
hahahhaz
i lyk todae!!!
but i'll b fine tmr!!!!!...
muackx...tata....i'm tired..

i miss rubbish*....but not too much now....

i haven been able to update lately...benn quite bz....erm..
o well
mum shifted the com to the living room...=X.....yupx....but den shifted until the com got problem le...
anw updates of the past few daes.....i went 2 bugis with jia, kendii....dee...and esther....jia and kendii went to cut hair....and i was pretty pissed with a few ppl in class...
it was lyk these ppl didn even tell me b4 hand ...and i alreadi had an appt ....grrr.....
yupyup..
and den todae had cip we did sum falg dae tingey...bt den half the time me jia kendii and dee....were walkin...we went to raffles place...and den walk to esplande and den walk to suntec city lolx....but it was quite fun though...there was these grp of china tourist hu saw us and keep on takin our foto...but i itink dey were takin more of jia's foto...she's soo pretty....
but den it feels good to hav sooo many ppl takin ur foto...lyk sum superstar lyk tat...lolx...
and den aft tat...took sum weird fotos on my fone lolx..
hahahahaz...soo fun...
den later went shopping back at tm...
aft tat went to bugis to meet mummy for lunch...i treat her pastamania kkz....spent lyk 16.90 lo..
but super super broke now!!!
and mum bought a werid dress too....!!!!!!!!....and it's lyk super ex!!!!!!!!....129 plus leh...

haiz i miss rubbish*

arhhhh....grrrr.....

hey todae have 5 items for napfa...arh...i fail!!!!!!....bcoz of juz one item the standing broad jump.....hmph!!!!!!!!....arg..... angry!!!!!!!!.....ok ok...nvm i'm goonna train dis week den retake on mon wiv the rest!....and i intend to run durin morning run...wiv diane and deb!....lolx...

yup anw todae aft five items kendii, dee and me went to paya lebar eat kfc...hurhur i'm beginnning to love those 2 girls more and more....lolx...and den we went to pupular....and den go buy a ear ring!!....hurhur on fridae we go buy the princess ring 2gether ok!!!!!!!!!
hahahaz...

sooo tmr i gg to cut hair....wad kind of hairstyle to cut arh??...lolx...shud i cut???.....

i seriously seriously miss rubbish*...

STRESS

hey hey....
erm...let's start frm ytd...hurhur.....i did sundae sch for the kids!!!!!!.....omg i waz soooo excited but yet nervous....hahahahz....waz sopooo afraid the kids waz gg to fall asleep.....but they were sooo cute.....little caleb was soo active!!!.....he was running around and den he came huggin my leg!!!!!!!!awwww soooo cute.....i luv him!!!!!!......and den der waz joel!!!!!!.....he's sooo sweet....feed me biscuit!!!!....and dey were sooo attentive when u tell them the bible story!!!!!...more attentive then me when i'm in sch!!!.....hahahahhahz...the rest of the kids waz from the other congregation...
yupyup.....and den we had chem tuition wiv aunty elaine...romei nad leon had to go to ikea wiv their family...sooooi wentto ps to find terence....
hurhur i waz craving for gelare....sooo me and terence shared one large wafer wiv cookies n cream ice cream....yummmmm......

yupyup....alrite soooo todae....actualli aft sch me and diying waz suppose to go to paya lebar....but den diane and esther join us sooo we went to kfc to eat....listen and sang sum songs wiv those lovely girls.....
hahahahaz...and den we tok until no need to go to paya lebar to study le!!!!!!!!.....lolx....
aiya nvm la....tmrgo find biao jie for tuition....
as for now i muz study....the teachers are realli not teaching much...!!!!....we hav lots of topics not done yet and it's onli a few weeks frm exams!!!!!!!!....arh...
ok gonna study now!!!!!!
i miss rubbish!

STRESS.... STRESSS STRESS STESSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz i'm damn xianz todae.....im at home the whold dae...lolx...but this morning went to run wiv mummy..and den went to eat macs....den she realize she nv take the key out...cor dad to get the key luckily he was nearby...i juz finish preparing the sunday sch materials....still hav sum stuff to clarify wiv aunty ruth....yupyupx....
soo now i'm doin my f&N research.....hahahaz

o no....i'm sooo worried bout tmr's sunday sch!!!>....i tink doin the youth band waz much easier den doing these....cozi scared sum stuff i sae too chim for the kids xia...

hahahaz...and if 'u' are readin this , stop being soo despo.....i'm not a matchmaker...i understand tat u are suffering frm a broken heart....but gg around findin another person isn't gg to help....it's time tat helps...i'm not trying to b mean...but it's juz not right..get it....life still goes on after a major break up...u either move along...or u'll let everyone move along and u'll stay in ur miserable spot....
i'll b der for u...dis i promise....but stuff lyk dis i cant do....it wont do u good!!!..... i dont mean dis in a bad way alrite...:)...
i'll still luv u...:D...
hahhahaz

ok ok..

i miss rubbish!!!!!

yea....todae 2.4 km run.....hahahhaz....started at 3.40....so me and deb went addie hse first...to wait for addie to get her stuff.....n i tried her mum's swimming costume which was abit weird on me....hahahaz...and den we went to deb hse to wait for her to gether swimming stuff too!!!!.....her mom ish soo nice...:)....and her sis ish very pretty too...:).....hahhaz
i wasn't suppose to swim wiv dem....but juz gg der to watch my frens swim...sooo aft tat we meet up wiv audrey diane esther diying and kendra.....hurhur...and ate wasabi crackers.....(o my son it was hot)....hahahahz.....yupyup...
den we waited for our turn to run...dis year we could run with our mp3s wiv us...:D....hahahaz...soo i ran....sorry guys i din wait for u all...hahahaz....i waz quite please wiv my run though...coz i usually stop alot...but dis year i ran most of the time...opps and addie tried to tap me....but i din realize...:D....i waz faaaster den her..:D....hahahahhaz....
yup and den when everyone gather together audrey found out tat she lost the key ....for the padlock for diane bag coz dey put their wallets in der....so we ran back again to look for it...soo we practically ran 4.8km all in all....but still couldn't find it....hahahhaz..
luckily....we manage to dig thru diane's bag and get the wallets all out....hahahahaz
and den we went to the swimming complex...i initially wasn't suppose to swim wiv dem!!!!!!!....but in the end they pull me to the pool...and wanted to splash water at me...and dat if i dun change into esther's mum's swimming costume....they are gg to wet me...sooo in the end i went...hahahahz...i tot i look weird!!!!!!!!......totally ugly...and fat...hmph....
but den again i had fun.....
but den i had to leave....soo i said bye to my sexay addie....diane and the rest....accept for audrey, kendra and diying hu went back wiv me....
kendra and diying took cab wiv me while audrey walk home...
hahahahz....
den when reach home...mum and me go eat down stairs herbal chicken and claypot ginger fish....nice.....
poor diying i tink shes gonna hav a flu soon!
ooo well i had fun todae!!...
wive my sexay addie, lovely deborah, darlin esther,honey diane, cutie kendra, HORNY audrey....and sweetie diying...

my dearlie jia rong waz sick couldnt cum...aw.....i miss jia!!!!!!
and i miss "rubbish"!

hahahhaz girls i luv u ...tkhs for the dae!!!....

i'm soo worried bout sundae sch!!!!

pangseh lo

hey hey...o well i'm gettin better todae...at least i dun feel 2 feverish....hahhahaz...but still got cough and flu....blehx....sooo xianx....hahahaz...
o well alrite....todae stayed back in sch....hurhur....waited for add-die and diying....lolx...and audrey and deb hav tutorial...so me esther and diane went to the libray to do hmwork...hahahaz norti esther din bring hmwork....keep tokin...:p( kidding la)....hahahaz...so anw aft tat we went to find diying dey all...and den waited for addie....by then audrey and deb waz out for tutorial....hurhur...deb do french braids for me...:D....
o and den arh the whole grp pangseh me le!!!!!......aftcing them dey pangseh me again nv wait for me when i cor *ahem*...
o well...nv meet *aheM* todae coz he got sumting else on...yupx yup....
2.4km tmr sooo scared

haiz i miss *ahem*

fever

o man.....i'm feelin soo sick and feverish.....
juz came back from sendin diying back to the mrt.....she came my hse to study todae ...until 7pm..hahahhaz shes sooo hardworkin....soooo diying and i shared sum stuff...yupyup....and she bought chocs for me....awwwww...hahaz...nutting much happen todae tat's bout all...


tata ppl...


i'm sick....blehx....

rainy dae!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaz todae waz abit weird...hahahhaz me audrey addie deborah and esther went to fcc to eat after sch....den halfway rain until lyk hell xia!!!...hahahahhaz....so i let them use the umbrella and ran in the rain(c i'm soooo nice ppl).....so aft tat i waz lyk super drenched!!!!!! my gosh...!!!....realli drenched.... soooo aft we alll wentto the toilet and get ourselves all tidy up we went into the soo called "cafe"....ahhahahz...and i got real cold in side...the aircon waz lyk blowin at me....and i waz super wet....ooo and den "ahem" came...yaz.....i waz shivering while eatin my nasi lemak la!!!.....and wad the rest sae i look lyk a nutcracker wiv my teeth chatterin...lyk wad!!!!....hahahhaz...sooo now i juz puke out my nasi lemak...and kept on sneezing and coughing...

haiz i miss yvonne and emelia...nv see them for two weeks le!!!!.....o but i'm glad beatrice cum todae..i haven seen her for a long time either ...hurhur...shes so pretty...yupyup..todae no youth...so me and romeo and leon stayed back in church to study....aunty elaine gave us tution....:)....shes sooo nice...but i was a little annoyed coz i cant do the math qns....i totally cant do it and my sch teachers haven gone thru it either....i seriously worry man...!!...almost break down doin the qns la!!!.... sooo stress!!!!!!!!!!wahhhhh...haiz...guess i'll ask biaojie when we meet on tues....well after tat when tuition waz over....me romei and leon went down for a walk to get away from math stress...and den went up again to do some work....hahahhaz....
aft tat the real fun cums in....we fooled around wiv my fone...me and leon did a music video of the song "my redeemer lives"(the funny version)....and den we did another one of me doin the macs advertisement...aiya super funny la!!!!hahahhaz...but soo lame xia

haiz haiz yup yup..... tmr's sch again...xian...hahahahaz....but den again it'll end by the end of this year....muz seriously work hard..:p...

i miss "ahem ahem"

wedded bliss

hurhur...todae's fun!!!!
I CANT STAND IT PPL PLAYED APRIL FOOLS JOKE ON ME SOOO MANY TIMES AND I DUNNOE!!!!!
addie and deborah came to my hse todae....hahahhaaz...help dem straighten their hair...i tink i am sooo pro...whahahhaha dey were suppose to b at hm hse at 7.30....ermmmmm but arh CUM LATE....MAKE ME WAKE UP SOOO EARLY LO....hahahhaz....soo aniwae...i showed dem the dress and the blouse...i still tink i look lyk a duck wearing the dress....whahahahha.....erm....ya...and deborah keep on rantin bout how her outfit waz soo formal....and both addie and me assured it's not...hahahahaz...and she even wanted to go home...blur dork....ahhahahaz
oooo addie and deborah both look sooo cute in skirt...:D...

and soo after tat we took mrt to outram park and den take a cab....oh for goodness sake miss tan look like a china witch!!!!!!!!
hahahahaz....the wedding waz great everyone waz all dressed up looking pretty and hot!!!!! alrite so we saw mrlian....i sooo wanna scold him 4 abandonin the class...grrrrr....took fortos with ppl....hahahahahz...addie took forto wiv me...:D
ok den erm esther audrey addie deborah diane and diying and me ....went to bugis for lunch...at pastamania....quite worth it leh....7.80 for my food..hurhur....o ya den later 'ahem' came...hahahahhaz...he waz soo paiseh coz all girls...:P....lolx...hahahahaz....soo he waz very quiet...and dey all sae he look lyk girl and verena...whahahahha...his reaction waz priceless man!!!!!!....hurhur den took neoprint which he completely avoid cuz he shy......yupyup...and den after tat we all went home together... he and i get down at kallang first...
den pei him go eat...he sent me home...
yupyup and dat's almost all!!!!


ooo and did i mention...miss nunis sooo pretty todae...i'm soo happy for her...hahahaz we'll b prayin for her marriage life...i tink marriage is a great and challenging step to a new lifestyle....i tink everyone in 4.4 would giv her our blessings...:)....yea....rhe wedding's beautiful!!!!....

i'll definitely not forget todae...it's one of the most beautiful dae in my life...:)....

kisses to all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!